Showing posts with label tiredness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label tiredness. Show all posts

Sunday, 18 April 2010

running through chemo ...

When I started out on my chemotherapy treatment for my Hodgkins lymphoma, I spoke to my cancer nurse about whether or not I would be able to keep running while I was going through the 3-4 months of treatment. I was pleased when she told me that she couldn't see why not, though warned that I would feel tired at times, and I should really listen to my body rather than trying to blindly stick to an inflexible running programme. 

Immediately after my first session of ABVD chemotherapy on March 31st, I actually felt great, so the next day, I was out on the road for a 3.6 mile run, feeling strong and wondering what all the fuss was about! And then, it hit me! By April 3rd, I was basically knackered! I felt as if someone had flicked a switch and turned the power off, or that my engine had run out of gas. Mornings were okay-ish, but by lunchtime, I was drained, and needed to sleep for an hour or two. And any thoughts of running were totally out the door - I remember watching a runner dodge past pedestrians on the street one day, and wondering how on earth anyone could do something THAT energetic!

The weariness lasted about a week, and gradually, I began to feel half-energetic again. So by April 11th, I felt able to try a gentle jog of a couple of miles. That went okay, so I tried 3.5 miles on the 13th, just before I was due my next chemo on the 14th. I thought that that would be the pattern ahead of me: limited energy, and grabbing a couple of miles here and there when I felt I could. Not exactly what I'd hoped for, but in the circumstances, the best I think I could have expected. However, because my white blood cell count (in particular my neutrophils, which are the main infection fighters in my blood) was still low from my first treatment, my 2nd chemo treatment was postponed for six days, and in the interim, my energy levels recovered even more, so I managed another 3.5 miles on the 16th. 

Then this morning, the 18th, it being my birthday, I thought I'd make a bit of an effort and have a longer run. I mean, it's only three weeks since I ran the Wilmslow Half Marathon (three days before my chemo started), so I knew I had to have some sort of residual fitness still (didn't I?). So off I set, at around 7.30 (I'm a very sad early riser: I'd already walked the dog before this, so had kind of warmed up a little too). I wanted to do at least a 10K/6 mile run, and so I took a lovely route that took in part of a local cycle way that runs out into the surrounding countryside. I was running into the rising sun, with blue skies overhead, and mist burning off the land ahead of me as I ran. The sun itself was a wonderful burnt orange as it climbed into the sky, probably thanks at least in part to the Icelandic volcanic ash in the atmosphere. It was all truly magical, and the sense of wonder was added to by a heron, which glided alongside me at one point, landing majestically by a small pond ahead, then stretching it's neck, opening it's wings and slowly taking flight again, sailing low across the fields into the mists. 

With this to distract me, running couldn't have come easier at that point, and I found myself stepping out along the track feeling very comfortable and strong. The run back home from the turn was not quite effortless, but it felt good, and I completed 6.6 miles in 59 minutes, averaging 8.59 minutes per mile (data courtesy of RunKeeper Pro on my iPhone *GRINS*), a speed slightly faster than my usual pace, so all in all, it was a run that I was extremely pleased with.

I now face my next chemo on April 20th, white blood count/neutrophils permitting, so if it goes ahead (fingers crossed), I guess I can look forward to a similar pattern of energy/weariness ahead. If the interim blood count is low again in a week's time, I guess the cycle may come to stretch to every three instead of every two weeks, and maybe my "running through chemo" will increase in that third week again. But, while I am enjoying being able to get out there once again and pound the pavements, in all honesty, I think I'd settle for less running for a while if I could just get through this chemotherapy treatment sooner rather than later. But hey, all that appears to be out of my control ... my body will do what it needs to get me through this, I'm sure, and the treatment will take as long as it needs to take. All that really matters is that, at the end of it all, I get the all clear, which is what is expected ... and when that happens, I'll probably celebrate with a glass of something ... after I've been for a run! :D

Monday, 5 April 2010

mmm, a mixed response to my ABVD chemo ...

Last Thursday, the day after my 1st chemo treatment, I woke up feeling great! So good, in fact, that I headed off to the gym and went out from there for a 30-odd minute run. I felt fine through it, and even contemplated extending the route an extra mile or three, but good sense (not something I'm always noted for) took over, and I kept it short. 

Felt good throughout the rest of the day, and woke the next feeling similarly good. Tempted to run again, but once more, this strange common sense-thingy took hold of me, and I decided not to push things just yet. But I did find myself wondering, hopefully, if maybe I might get through this experience relatively unscathed. 

Still good on Saturday morning (C-day +3), and so headed off to meet friends, Mel and Stu, and go to the Chester Food and Drink Festival at the Chester Race Course. This is an annual event and something Donna and I really enjoy: lots of food stalls, samples, and cookery demonstrations, good fun all round. Of course, this year, I wasn't able to try any of the samples as I have to watch what I eat, but I could still enjoy seeing what was on offer and buying various things to have later at home, once we'd cooked them. One highlight is usually the hog roast lunch, but that was out of bounds for me too (not allowed any takeaway-type foods or food from deli counters for the duration of the treatment; possibility of picking up germs, which under normal circumstances, I could cope with, but with depleted white blood cells, my resistance to possible infection is lowered). Donna had some though (I wasn't going to deny her that, now come on!), but insisted that it wasn't very nice at all :-P! 

However, the day out (well, several hours anyway), and possibly the crowds, began to take their toll, and I was feeling quite shattered as we made our way home. Later that evening, I also noticed a niggling sore throat starting. Checked my temperature, and it was okay at 36.2C, but took a couple of precautionary hot Lemsip drinks through the rest of the day. This seemed to work, as I woke Easter Sunday morning with my throat feeling fine. It was a lovely morning, so I took the opportunity to mow the lawn - the first cut of the year, folks, I know, how could I? - but I felt I had the energy for it, and, following on from the advice of Nurse Dee, I was listening to my body and doing what I felt able to.

But since then, I have been noticeably more tired, and have concluded that I need to go a little bit more slowly about things. This morning, after a broken nights' sleep, I am knackered. I really felt quite queasy at about 3.00 am and thought perhaps the nausea that is threatened to come with this treatment sometimes was going to hit good and proper, but a quick couple of tablets to counteract this (Domperidone ROCK!) saved the day/night.

This morning, Easter Monday, I reckon I'm going to have a very slow day ... no nonsense, no "maybe just a little ...", I'm officially resting today. For once, as so many tweets and Facebook messages have suggested to me over the past couple of days, maybe I CAN be sensible ... :)